So I was watching The Passion of the Christ with my family a while back, and all I could think was “Damn, Jesus was sexy.” Is that sacrilegious?
Eh, who cares, I’m Pagan. :P
They’re celebrating Samhain in Merlin! And they said it correctly. The nerd and the Pagan within me are rejoicing! Gah.
I think the turtle is my new spirit animal.
Either that, or I’m just obsessing over them right now.
Either way, turtles are pretty fucking special to me.
Guys.
I want to be the happy, hippie, Pagan version of me that I was just a few months ago.
I don’t want to be this depressed, tired, lazy person that I am now.
Any advice?
(Oh, I recently discovered I might be bipolar. I’m getting a second opinion/help with that soon.)
But other than that…advice?
Conversation between a Christian man (Mormon) and a Pagan woman (eclectic)
- Him: I invite you to come marry me. (This was a status post, however, he has messaged me and other girls he doesn't know, asking them to marry him in the temple. He's asking strangers this. If you're wondering, this conversation occurred on the site, Myyearbook.com)
- Me: (as a message to him, because I was annoyed at this point) Desperation is very unattractive. Women do not like desperate men. Also, you need to learn how to be happy on your own, or you will NEVER be happy with your spouse. Also, you date before you get married. You don't just marry a random girl. That's a recipe for disaster.
- Him: :) Are you temple worthy? Are you a virgin? Because that's what I'm desperate for! If not, have faith in Christ and repent of your sins until you can get there. I trust God. If he says to marry a complete stranger, I wil.
- Me: God wouldn't tell you to marry a complete stranger, because God is not an idiot.
- Him: Read the story of Isaac and Rebekah in the the first book of the bible Genesis Chapter 24. She agreed to marry Him before even meeting him in person. She didn't have internet or a picture or an "about me" to read to help her decide. And I am looking for a girl who is looking for a Temple marriage and will work towards that goal. Not a whore who just wants to feast on some flesh and abuse the world around her. But if you are willing to repent of all your sins and serve the God with all your heart and keep all his commandments, then I am willing to give you an opertunity to be married in the Temple. Which if found worthy, will allow to the be a goddess instead of an angel after the resurrection, and be able to continue having children for all eternity. Angels cannot reproduce. Angel's have to serve the gods for all eternity.
- Me: So you're not looking for love? Wouldn't you rather be madly in love with the woman you're going to marry, rather than marry just anyone? No woman is going to agree to this. Women crave romance and passion in a marriage...not just a contract. She will want to get to know you first, and then she'll want to be romanced and swept off her feet by you. She'll want to be romantic and sweet. She'll want you to marry her because you love her, not just because she was there. You have been asking for this for a very long time on MyYearbook, and I'm telling you why it isn't happening. Women want to be in love. They won't marry some strange man on the internet who claims to be a faithful LDS man. People can claim whatever they want on the internet. They have no reason to trust or believe you. These things take time. You sound quite impatient, so I'm sorry to burst your bubble, but you're not going to find a woman on here and get married this week, unless you find a woman who is completely insane. A sane and rational woman would never do that.
- Him: I love all God's daughters. I have been engaged twice this last year to two beautiful virgins. Who unfortunatly I had to brake up with because neither was ready or was the girl I felt I should marry. Both I found on the enternet. And you can't fake being worthy for a temple marriage. One must get several interviews by church leaders who recieve revalation and prophecy from God and stand as judges and are held acountable before God if they let someone unworthy enter into the everlasting covenant. The whore of the world wishes for all the blessings of heaven without any works of faith and repentance. I understand whores want sex first, but the best things in life come to those who wait and live the commandments of God and marry first. We are charged to love and forgive all. And seek Forgiveness from God for our sins and forsake them all. And become clean and worthy through the atonement of Christ. My Job, is to try to marry you in the temple. If we aren't meant to be together, at least I know I invited you to live a better life.
- Me: You don't START a relationship with engagement. You can meet on the internet, but you START a relationship with going on dates! Then you start dating, then you move on to being in a serious relationship, and then, after at least a year or two, you both decide if you are ready for marriage. The dating process is meant for finding someone you are compatible with, and finding the person you want to marry. You may love all of God's daughters, but love and being IN LOVE are two totally different things! You love your mom, but you would never marry your mom. There is a difference between love and in love. Being temple worthy is not enough for two people to get married. There is SO MUCH MORE to marriage than that. There's love and trust, and compatibility. You are not going to have that with every single girl who is temple worthy. Relationships take time and effort to build, and they are not easy! They're very very hard! But getting through the hard stuff is what makes the bond between two people strong. My grandparents have been married for 40 years. They said that the reason they were able to stay together is because they were best friends FIRST. You should marry a girl who will be your best friend, since she will be your companion from this life into the next. If you're not best friends, you will both be very miserable. It seems to me like you are looking for the easy way out, and your marriage will fail because of it.
- Him: I will do my Lord's will and keep his comandments. I will treat others like I wish to be treated. I choose to be a god. I wish you would as well.
- Me: You didn't take in anything that I said. I'm beginning to wonder if you have a brain deficiency. And I already am a motherfucking goddess. I don't need your religion or your bullshit rules to be one.
- Him: I love you Taylore... Have faith in Christ and repent of your sins.
- Me: You don't love me. You might have compassion for me as a fellow human being, but you cannot love what you do not know, and you do not know me. I have faith in myself. I don't need Christ. I know him, and he's great, but I don't need him. I just need me.
- Him: I do love you. And everyone one this planet needs Christ to be forgiven of there sins and to be ressurected after death. And if you don't repent, He will ressurect you as an angel and not a god. which means no babies and no planets
- Me: Oh, but I don't believe in sin. I think that is a false concept used to make people feel guilty for things that make them feel good. I think if it makes you smile, and doesn't hurt anyone, then there is nothing wrong with it. I believe that everyone has their own god/goddess, and that it is them. I am already a Goddess. I have a Goddess, and She loves me, and I pray to Her. I do not pray to her consort, the God. I can appreciate Him, but I do not intimately need Him like I need Her. She understands me better because she is a woman. I believe that every religion is true, simply because people believe in it, and when we die, whatever we think will happen, will. So you will become a God and whatnot. And I will be reborn onto this planet and live many more lives until I want to do something else. Just because one thing is true, that doesn't mean the opposite thing is false. We do not live in a world of Black and White. There are no absolutes.
- (I'll post more as we message more.) : P
I was recently asked, “SO I just finished reading your little “debate” and I have got to say.I am in love with you. Marry me?”
I answered, “Oh my goodness! Thank you! (:
My Goddess has many faces. See, in my belief system that I have created for myself, we all have our own personal Gods and Goddess, of whom we are extensions. To relate it to life, it’s sort of like dreaming. When we go to sleep and enter the dream realm, we have bodies and experiences that feel real but our “real” bodies are in tact, laying in our beds. When we’re dreaming, we can’t remember the events of our lives, all we can remember is what we are supposed to remember in the specific dream. I believe that when we “die” we go back to our spiritual bodies, and when we do, we remember all the events in all of the lives we have lived. But when we are born, we “forget” all of those things, because remembering them all in our tiny brains would overload them. We can tap into the consciousness of our “Higher Selves” through meditation, spell work, prayer, and other divination practices. I also believe that simply believing in something makes it true. That’s not to say that believing the sky is brown will make it brown, but on a metaphysical level, believing in something gives it power. So all the ancient gods and goddesses are real in a sense. Does that make any sense? Sorry if it doesn’t, haha.”
The reason I didn’t post it is because I like to answer questions privately. It’s difficult to continually check back to someone’s blog to see whether or not they answered. I liked my answer, so I thought I would share. (:
So I decided to research the moonstone, since I saw it during my meditation, and I didn’t know anything about it. http://gypsymagicspells.blogspot.com/2011/03/moonstone-magick.html What is it about the moon, fertility, and “psychic vibrations,” that makes them pop in my life almost every day?? This is more than a coincidence. This is a pattern. I need to pay attention to this.
